Wow...its been a while


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GOD'S CAKE

Sometimes we wonder, "What did I do to deserve

this?" or "Why did God have to do this to me?" Here

is a wonderful explanation!

A daughter is telling her Mother how everything is

going wrong, she's failing algebra, her boyfriend

broke up with her and her best friend is moving

away.

Meanwhile, her Mother is baking a cake and asks

her daughter if she would like a snack, and the

daughter says, "Absolutely Mom, I love your cake."

Here, have some cooking oil," her Mother

offers. "Yuck" says her daughter.

"How about a couple raw eggs?"

"Gross, Mom!"

"Would you like some flour then? Or maybe baking

soda?" "Mom, those are all yucky!"

To which the mother replies: "Yes, all those

things seem bad all by themselves. But when they are

put together in the right way, they make a

wonderfully delicious cake!

God works the same way. Many times we wonder why

He would let us go through such bad and difficult

times. But God knows that when He puts these things

all in His order, they always work for good! We just

have to trust Him and, eventually, they will all

make something wonderful!

God is crazy about you. He sends you flowers

every spring and a sunrise every morning.



Whenever you want to talk, He'll listen. He can

live anywhere in the universe, and He chose your

heart.

If you like this, send this on to the people you

really care about. I did.

I hope your day is a "piece of cake!"

Life may not be the party we hoped for, but

while we are here we might as well dance.

This week suckeddddd! So bad... Next week will probably be even worse...










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Is all I have to say

SO, the concert was AMAZING! Panic at the Disco, Boys Night Out, The Starting Line, Motion City Soundtrack and FALL OUT BOY! Everyone was awesome, they all had great energy! I really had a good time... but before the concert was the best.


So, we were in Detroit, at the State Theater, and we needed to park. After driving around forever!, we decided to just park at the FOX parking. I said "We need money!" And he said no not til you leave. But...we needed it before. So she took his license, and we went off to find an ATM. We went to like a MILLION places..(no you did not!)...and finally found some cash. So on our way back, some guy on the corner was like... YOU GUYS GOING TO THE SHOW!? And we were like yah yah...we just walked by. He said I HAVE A TICKET FOR SALE! and we were like we have tickets...but then Jim checked his pocket. And his was gone. Turns out we had walked by that corner on our scouting an ATM and he dropped his. SO... but the guy was soooo nice, he just gave it back! But we had to buy a bag of peanuts from him. lol. So, we had our peanuts, our tickets and we were walkin... and then! Some homeless lady...was all " HEY DO YOU HAVE A QUARTER...OR SOMETHING I NEED FOOOOOOOD!" and jim was all, feeling generous and extremely lucky at the time...so he was all "How about a DOLLAR!" And she was like "OH YES< HOW AWESOME. Im gonna get something to eat!!" And she was all happy... then I said, you should have just given her the peanuts... So he was like hey...want these peanuts!? And she was like YES! And then she walked down the middle of the street, toward the cops...and was like "Hey officers! I got some PEANUTS!" HAH...wow. great. What an adventure.

So yah. Good times. Good show. And yah..

Today was blah.

But I have an amazing friend who made it allllll better :)

End of story. Come back tomorrow... Cause tonight I am going to Meijer... so it should be good.

-im the girl who will show up at your house with soup and a movie when you aren't feeling well

-im the girl who listens to you when you talk... and cares when you've had a bad day

-im the girl who's excited all day because im looking fowrward to our date that night

-im the girl who can't help but smile when you walk into the room

-im the girl who won't lie to you about where hes going or where he's been or who he's been with

-im the girlwho doesn't care about your imperfections and loves you more for them

-i’m the girl who laughs at your jokes

-i'm the girl who is friends with your friends

-i'm the girl who can have a good time, without partying too much

-i'm the girl who gives massages without you having to ask

-i'm the girl who tries not to argue

-i'm the girl who apologizes for when she does wrong

-i'm the girl who is ready for a date when I’m suppose to be

-i'm the girl that doesn’t take hours to get ready… but still looks
good

- i'm the girl that has direction

-i'm the girl that can be your best friend

-i'm the girl that doesn't mind staying home somtimes

-i'm the girl that hates drama

-i'm the girl that always smells good

-i'm the girl that doesn't lie

-i'm the girl that will go out with you and your friends

-i'm the girl that wants you to have a "guys night"

-i'm the girl that wont hang up on you

-i'm the girl that doesn't play mind games

-i'm the girl that makes your friends jealous

-i'm the girl that you can take home to mom

FALL OUT BOY TOMORROW! AHH I AM SO EXCITED!

 

That is all I have to say for now...for now...

 

Im still contemplating the situation.

 

Its a difficult one.

hm...

LJ Interests meme results

1. dave matthews band:
   Good music is amazing...so are they!
2. flowers:
   Who doesn't love flowers!? Appealing to the sense, good for your mood I think. :) It's nice to get 'em too
3. ice cream:
   Hah, YUM! It has to be some of the best stuff on earth. Who, again, does not like ice cream???
4. laughing:
   :) Laughing is good for the soul. I love to do it...all the time. And if your with me...you must laugh as well. I will see to it!
5. music:
   :) Again, music, just makes me happy. Love it. Im in love it with. I think its the only thing in your life that can conform to whatever mood your in, or change it completly.
6. pretty eyes:
   Blue eyes...especially, but a guy with pretty eyes, I could just melt for.
7. sledding:
   Hah, I don't know why this is on my interests list? I've never been...so maybe I want to? Thats why I'm interested...
8. stoney creek:
   A good day at stoney creek...there is nothing like it...
9. the beach:
   The beach is fun... as long as there are no long walks involved. Although... I have found the secret meaning behind them!
10. two ply toilet paper:
    Lastly, who does not like a good toilet paper to use...? Tissue paperish toilet paper is what is wrong with the world...

Enter your LJ user name, and 10 interests will be selected from your interest list.

I think that "we" are ok? I have my work cut out for me tho...wish me luck!

Bah! I just had the worst sequence of events happen to me! Hah, it was like one bad thing after the other here at my place, but I couldn't help but laugh, so at least I had a positive outlook on the awfulness. So anywho...

Today I decided to end things. It was a healthy choice I think, since my mental/emotional health has been suffering since God knows when. That makes me happy...and sad at the same time. I have mixed emotions on the whole deal. And I still haven't talked to him about it yet..so perhaps I will know more when that happens...so until then, To Be Continued!

Talked to Jim, the guys in NY did an awesome job and recording went super good! I am so proud of the boys. Except for all the police and stuff...that was unfortunate. But the rest, the record companies and all good contacts and stuff. Good job! I can't wait to hear it!



I am so ready for Halloween! I think I am just excited for fall, the holidays, everything! Trying to be optimistic about nothing is hard I guess....so when all else fails, pick the calender! :)

So my sis came! YAY! How awesome is that. We had some majorly fun times last night, now we are up WAY to early, only God knows why... I have to find something amazing for us to do today as well...something worth doing for sure.



I also have to go take that damn ass gateway, and hopefully pass it on the very first try? That would really work for me no? It wont happen, and I will get upset. But what are you going to do. I could take it tomorrow from 7-10? But then I would have to cancel my date. I dont know if I want to have it anyways. So, decisions!



Pat is coming into town next weekend. And we are going to hang out. So that should be fun, I haven't seen Riot in so long. And Combined with our hot hair, we will be a stunning pair...




hmmmmmmmmm.....I think I wanna have a party, for Halloween or something, I dunno yet. Or do something fun on or around that date. Way fun. hm....

YAH! I got to see my Paul today! That made me soooooo happy to see him when I walked out of the door! And he just gave me this giant hug and was like "Nikki Bork! How is life?!"...I love that kid. Hopefully I will be able to hang out with him soon...for sure!

Some guy on myspace wants me to be a porn star...um no thanks?

Maybe some brownies? Maybe some laundry? I've got plans for the night lol


OH YAH... one of the girls in the apartment...please someone contact me, I need some help figuring someone out...

Hah I just heard this song on the radio...and remembered the good ole' days when I bought this cd...for this one song...

I'm probably bi-polar like this sometimes...


I hate the world today
You're so good to me
I know but I can't change
Tried to tell you
But you look at me like maybe
I'm an angel underneath
Innocent and sweet
Yesterday I cried
Must have been relieved to see
The softer side
I can understand how you'd be so confused
I don't envy you
I'm a little bit of everything
All rolled into one

I'm a bitch, I'm a lover
I'm a child, I'm a mother
I'm a sinner, I'm a saint
I do not feel ashamed
I'm your hell, I'm your dream
I'm nothing in between
You know you wouldn't want it any other way

So take me as I am
This may mean
You'll have to be a stronger man
Rest assured that
When I start to make you nervous
And I'm going to extremes
Tomorrow I will change
And today won't mean a thing

Just when you think, you got me figured out
The season's already changing
I think it's cool, you do what you do
And don't try to save me

I'm a bitch, I'm a tease
I'm a goddess on my knees
When you hurt, when you suffer
I'm your angel undercover
I've been numb, I'm revived
Can't say I'm not alive
You know I wouldn't want it any other way

1. Reply with your name and I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal. You MUST. It is written!!!

I take back everything I said yesterday...






I am miserable :(

So... I think, that this last two weeks has been some of the happiest times I've had in a while. Just really good friends, getting back into hanging out with the girls, and making new friends all over. I think I can finally breathe, and it just feels so good. I forgot what I was really like, I was always so concerned with everything else that I lost myself. I dont wanna be that way anymore...and Im...not now.

Anywho, so yes, I am happy. I have something really great in my life right now. And at the same time, its that new confused feeling that I hate. It makes you sick to your stomach to think about. I hate that feeling. Yuck. But you know at the same time that you love it, because its not always a bad thing. And I've got Joel to get me through anything that I have problems with, hes been such an awesome friend I just love this kid! And equally with his bf ;) hah.

School starts tomorrow... I really have no classes I realize, except Wed. Those days are going to suck. 8:30-3:00...gross. Thermodynamics is going to be uh...fun? I have this feeling that I am going to be the only one in that class since there are 36 open seats hah, unless its like a big huge class...in which case I am going to fail...lol.


And laundry sucks... this year is going to suck... so is the rest of my life hah...

Oh, this is the start of something good
Don't you agree?
I haven't felt like this in so many moons
You know what I mean?
And we can build through this destruction
As we are standing on our feet

So since you want to be with me
You'll have to follow through
With every word you say
And I, all I really want is you
For you to stick around
I'll see you everyday
But you have to follow through
You have to follow through

These reeling emotions they just keep me alive
They keep me in tune
Oh, look what I‘m holding here in my fire
This is for you
Am I too obvious to preach it
You're so hypnotic on my heart
So since you want to be with me
You'll have to follow through
With every word you say
And I, all I really want is you
For you to stick around
I'll see you everyday
But you have to follow through
You have to follow through
The words you say to me are unlike anything
That's ever been said
And what you do to me is unlike anything
That's ever been
Am I too obvious to preach it
You're so hypnotic on my heart

So since you want to be with me
You'll have to follow through
With every word you say
And I, all I really want is you
For you to stick around
I'll see you everyday

So since you want to be with me
You'll have to follow through
With every word you say
And I, all I really want is you
For you to stick around
I'll see you everyday
But you have to follow through
You have to follow through
You're gonna have to follow

Oh, this is the start of something good
Don't you agree?



Ahh...love this song

I feel so alone...:(

1. Go into your LJ’s archive.
2. Find your 23rd post (or closest to).
3. Find the fifth sentence (or closest to).
4. Post the text of the sentence in your blog along with these instructions.
5. Tag five people to do the same.


But anyway, babysitting was hell, and i hate those kids.

(and it is as true then as it is now)

I tag...Julie, Andy, Eric, Jeremy and Amy

Ok, so in my efforts to stay in touch with all of my wonderfully awesome friends( this means especially you out of staters Whit, Amanda, Katie), I want to make time each week to talk to you guys at least on the phone for a while, just to check in and see how things are going. Even you peeps at UofM can do this, but I hope that you know we are going to see more of eachother this year. Anywho, If you could leave me a comment, what day and time is best, I can either call you, you can call me, and I want to just talk to you for a while every week. Hopefully, with this I will not just loose touch with you and I can be like, hey its time to call so and so. So leave me a comment... EVERYONE!

Well, I just wanted to thank everyone so much for commenting in my last entry...especially you whom I haven't heard from or seen in so long! (Penny, Heather, John, Harry, Jay and anyone else) Thanks! I need to keep in touch more with people...

Random Phone Calls Rock.

Anywho...Also, I think we are ok? I'm not sure what's going to happen, just rollin with the punches. But even talking about it sucks...

Oye...Movin in 3 days to Ann Arbor...:) YES!

In most uses...this word is awesome.

Winter Break..

Spring Break...

Lunch Break...





But when it comes after one year... I think it could be the worst word I've ever experienced.


I wish I had someone to talk to :(